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Post by Bokusenou on Jan 3, 2014 22:26:12 GMT
I think chatpad is more freeing in a way precisely because it's not about building long term relationships. If I know I'll probably never talk to a person again, it takes a lot of pressure off and I can be more free with trying things out. Long term friendships are great, but with Japanese ones there's always the worry I'll say something that will tick them off. With a group of Americans I'm usually one of the most indirect and passive ones in the group, but when that group is Japanese people I'm usually one of the most blunt ones. Coupled with the Japanese tendency to not show that something is bothering them until they can't take it any more and yell, or cease contact with someone altogether, means I'm always wondering if I'm doing something to upset them and the feeling I'm KY. Sometimes something like chatpad is kind of freeing.
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Post by Jembru on Jan 4, 2014 4:23:35 GMT
魔: Ah I see, then maybe they did think you were trolling? Not everyone is as distrustful of strangers as I am though. @rin: I can see how that could be quite freeing. I unfortunately have something my partner calls a 'cringe bladder', which means anything socially awkward makes me really unconfortable. This includes online interactions. I'm not the kind of person who can hide behind a user name and not take the consequenses of my actions to heart. Honestly, one out of place comment on something like that, and I would feel sick and could end up in tears. The Internet makes me cry a lot ^^ I'm always very impressed when people have the confidence to just do their best and not be shaken when they make mistakes, especially when they're beginners. They always inspire me, but never to the point where I can quite shake my own constant feeling of inadequacy. When I first discovered Abby, when she was making videos with limited Japanese ability and sharing them publically online, I was really amazed. I would do anything to have the self confidence to just go ahead and do things like that and not care whether or not people sneer at my effort. She really inspired me, and that's basicaly why I'm here at Gaiwa today. Of course, I'd never quite reach the point where I'd share videos like that, but I have appeard in some Gengo no Tabi videos and I share unlisted videos with Gaiwa and these are massive personal achievements for me. I don't know where I'd be without Gaiwa and the people I met here. This is the one and only place where I don't feel that people are laughing at me for being bad, but rather are supporting me for doing my best. That's why I'm so bumbed out that the laptop here at work doesn't load chat anymore. That was my only quick and easy access to text chat.
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Post by 魔 on Jan 4, 2014 19:49:22 GMT
I didn't feel comfortable using the chat at first. It felt weird and creepy. One thing that helped was just clicking into the chat and saying nothing. I'm still not totally comfortable using it, but more so than at the beginning.
こんにちはーこんちゃどこの地方の方ですか?私は近畿です~キンキー?お前はキンキーねきんきー?(・ω・)ではキンキーで(^0^)ペンはどこ?ペンとはなんですか?書く 方ですか?初心者でごめんなさい>< ;え?寝よう、おねがい。夢をい いですね夢をいいですね?寝たいのですか?キンキーさん、頑張って!えっと…睡眠は必要なんで寝ましょ う!ということですか…?それとも寝ろってことです かね?キンキー大丈夫?ちょっとよくわからなかっ たです、ごめんなさい…夢をいいですね、とはなん でしょう?お休みなさいなるほど、そういうことで したか!じゃあ寝ろってことですね !wではお言葉に甘えてヽ(*´ ∀`*)ノ おやすみなさい♪
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Post by Bokusenou on Jan 4, 2014 22:31:48 GMT
Jembru Yeah, know what you mean. I was really impressed when I saw your, Abby's, and Jade's Japanese speaking videos in the video thread on the old forum! I would be too nervous to do something like that and I really admire you guys for doing it. 魔 That's a good idea! That would have made my first few times at chatpad easier.
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